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What to think what to think. It always seems as if i get all the oppurtunities at the most inconvient times. I received my acceptance letter today from CSU and of course my wife isn't home to offer me direction if she would want to. Now i have this great job where i am finally working in a secure enviroment learning new things with big chances for growth. Do i sack that away and go farther into debt in hopes to find my "fortune and glory"
I really enjoy my job it doesn't feel like work and i feel part of a team which is important to me, but that really all i have. My marriage that i am trying hard to save doesn't seem like it'll ever work out. If i thought it would i wouldn't even consider leaving my wife to go back to school. I wish i had more then a computer screen to talk to.... unless the screen gave advice. My wife was once my best friend....Bestfriends know what the other needs to feel complete. And she's not willing to cal me and say I miss you which would mean more then saying i Love you, which inturn pushes me farther.....your classic catch 22.
I wish there was a way to prove to her that i am now naked to her, there is nothin i won't share or tell her. that may not be the problem though maybe she doesn't want to know everything and feels i am unfit to make her happy. which from our recent conversations seems to fit. She says she loves me and will always but.......will she seek happiness together with me?
I know when we are happy together nothing else matters. will it come to pass??? to be continued

well I went to visit Cowen at the canine country club. I missed him soo much. He was happy to see me but his buddies were around and wanted to continue to play. When i pulled in to the place i immediately seen him playfull tackling a friend. He suddenly stopped, raised his snout and sniffed he knew i arrived. I thought about taking him home but he seemed to be enjoying himself. I did have him registered with a microchip, hpefully i'll never need it.

Lighter note my schedule has changed. I will be sleeping normal. Well at least before the sun rises. It is a welcomed change. I enjoy my work but loathe the lack of "freetime" it lends me. I intend to seek my freetime gainfully.

Well it's official, I am creating my thought capsule on record. My world is changing dramaticly today my canine companions will be living it up at a country club and my life partner will be on a 10 day vacation is the cruel summer land of Florida's east coast. What will i do with myself?

Greetings so this is the world of web dairy. Hmmm.. we'll see how long it goes and where it will take me.